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In Touch Ministries > Resources > Life Principles to Live By > 30 Life Principles: "When Dr. Stanley was a young man, one week spent with his grandfather charted the course for more than 50 years of preaching God's Word. During those few days, he learned the first of 30 foundational truths that guide his life and ministry to this day."

I got to go to church Sunday night! That was a real treat! For now, it would be nice to live near the church, most everyone lives in that area.


No more than i'm on here, i'm still going to take a chance and see if anyone notices this question.

`WHO in my friends list did i become best of friends with when i moved to Ky in 1986? What did God use to influence her to Really live for Him consistantly all these years? (i cant say i Really know that answer???) I DO know she was one of 5 or 6 i `Really`Saw Run to the alter and Repent with `Godly Sorrow!`

Last.... Only those who have seen me in the past couple of years can answer this one.

Should i post a picture of how i Really look, It maybe for those who i've not seen since we moved back a wake up call. I havent done all this research, talk to anyone who will listen about these tumors, AND... we are the pioneers of something pretty much unheard of. AND i'm So Sick of talking about it, drs, anyone who wonders whats up with Joan, on the phone with long distance relatives, i can't even type out the testimony, this journey only God knows who will be able to even Believe, much less relate to; but Whoever This Person is will Need to Hear It or Read it, (at this time it will be read unless God puts me right in front of this person or persons!) It Will Save a LIfe more ways than one! (and bty i did put a pic of Now here... just look below the pic of me and my hubby!)

One thing i Do Know! Whatever the outcome, THIS season is NOT going to be in vain without God getting Glory for doing ONLY what HE can do, and Someone's Life Changed- right now its my own, but THIS.... No... God allows us to go through these things so that we can help others going through the same things. It is the Word, and it is Truth. Now this has turned into a blog! I'll put it in my notes and let the Lord take care of the rest. This is as long as i can sit at this thing, got to get out of here!

Pray for Sis. Sarah, she gets the results of her bone scan Thurs. She is in her 30's with children. I pray Gods Perfect Will Be done; His permissive will is comfortable just enough to keep from Really being conformed to the Image of His dear Son. God knows the outcome for her before she ever knew there was a problem. I know she wants Gods Perfect will, knowing that is one prayer that could bring some of the most painful events in a persons life, even death. BUT... if in Christ, we Never die! We Cannot Lose!!!!

***Just a paragraph up i said i had to get away from this computer.... and if i keep writing, just know God is in it. ****

*For those who do not know me well enough, writing, praying, meditating in the word, God works in and for me! I've always done this. Since this desk computer is a reminder of keep on going seeking the right information; and how that in Itself was Certianly Needful. the tole it took physically and mentally was devestating.

However, im Convinced not only does God want to teach me through it, Does this sound familiar? Seek `Wisdom, Knowledge and Understanding` that brings about right choices in every area of life. what Everyone was telling me to do, everyone has an opinion, diagnosis for the only symptom they know about, but have Not Done what it Takes to get this wisdom, Knowledge and Understanding. Its a sacrafice and Not a pleasant one in alot of cases. I';ve gotten some of the most ignorant to even deadly advice to the point of being Badgered using what is called the Cult Syndrome (how they draw you in, and then how they keep you! )This came in an ER! 2 of 8 hours there, this NURSE didnt know i knew this game Very well. Only i Know proper protocol in this area of medicine and this was nothing Less than Manipulation, ending in what is considered emotional abuse AND LYING to a patient to get them to do what they want! Regardless of the consequences to their health! What i didn't tell her did her in, even though she dosent know it. and Most could Easily have said yes, being sleep deprived, mentally exhausted, unclear thinking from a health issue that `Looks` like a mental break down, by this time there is depression and you may need some help but Please Unlesss you are considering hurting yourself, someone else, Do Not Go! Make an app. with family dr. and the Psy. but Be so VERY careful, psy. drugs are flying at everyone who will take them faster than you can get a pain pill for a migrane! In the ER if you need to be under the car of a Psy unit, You USUALLY are There For That Reason! I was NOT but for Heart Palpitations. No reason to ever go, they do nothing but send you home with the instructions to Return Immediatley if you have these symptoms (THE ONES THAT BRAUGHT YOU THERE TO BEGIN WITH!) lol......tHIS IS A JOKE MEDICALLY, BUT NOT ONE BIT FUNNY TO ME.

 Anyone Not VERY familiar with how manipulators take advantage of a sickness; eESP/. Undiagnosed: and if over a period of time seeing several specialist with "there's nothing wrong with you, and you know that there most certianly is!---will find some comfort that someone seems genuinely wanting to help and maybe "i'll Finally get a Diagnosis, or the Right Diagnosis," relaxes you to some degree and thinking `someone just take care of me for awhile, no decisions to make, someone else will do it for me. I can relax and give my mind a break. We have a Real tendancy to put ourselves into hands we know nothing about. of course its at our most vunerable times, the enemy of our souls knows what buttons to push,& what works. I think what Shocked me the MOST about this Nurses's determination to get me to do what She Said, putting aside all boundaries of conduct- i saw the Familiar ways satan works, its usually so deceptive & cunning that we are in shock when we finally see it. I knew she would not stop until she had exhausted all resources, i could have stopped her the first 15 minutes she was in, but seeing how odd this was, Def. Not the way it works with Psy. not ethical, legal, and its Always been a Doctor who comes in, gently askes you if you feel you want to hurt yourself, anyone else, if they are told no, then they ask if you think you can go home, or do you Want to stay here and see?  Now this has been over 20 years speaking from `my experiences`, but if someone tells me, this has happened to them in an ER other than where i went to, i;ll Believe you! I KNEW this had Something to do with money, sure enough when i got home looked up new bills being passed, coming or hoping to be passed, you know the way it works. This was in March and sure enough, beginning of April Everyone no matter if they had ins. or not, had the right to get the Same Psy. Care in Physility as someone with the best of insurance!  "PLEASE take your health care into your own hands by making yourself AWARE of problems you may already have, don't know if you have such as was my start 1in5 have PITUITARY TUMORS!  I'm not missing out on a good part of a nice day to sit on the porch just to rehash this over and over! I hate talking about this, because its here 24/7 and am grateful for time NOT to think about it, talk, type, most starting for your own notes and keeping up with app/ so much of what little energy you might have is put into this.

Well, Just Believe in God, and all the other cliches we hear from those who have NO idea what is going on with you and really do not care as long as it does not stress them.
Guess who the Stronger one is... you so Nor sleep, so you pace through the house praying, quoting scripture, pleading the blood over your home, you have NO choice But to Keep your Mind renewed, as disciplined as possible, and you do this for so long, whatever normal was, seems so unreal, it almost appears that sleep is a waste of time! There are battles and then their are bloody wars so gruesome even the evilest cringe.
To be conformed to the Image of Christ????? How do we think THAT will Ever happen? Suffering to the point of shedding your own blood. And you should know what that means. I thought i had suffered, well it does no good to go there if you are thinking, now someone who thinks about taking their life is just plain selfish. You must loose All HOPE in Everything, Everyone, your world will not even Resemble what it was! When something takes soooo long, causes so much suffering in your  body, your mind, and affects your spirit, along with those who you think love you the most, family in many cases; downplay what you say, do so and so and get your mind of of it. Oh and they all know just exactly what causes One of about 15 symptoms and you do it their way, you will be fine. where are they when its not convienant, the middle of the night, dinner time, you know what i'm talking about.
Do NOT underestimate what the lose of Hope does to a person. It comes gradually but there's One last button that will be pushed you don't see it coming. there are no words to describe it. I wish I could, It had nothing to do with my faith, yet Everything to do with it! God's purpose in suffering are always redemptive! enough on that.

Other than being conformed to the image of Jesus, we are to reconile others to Him! "Its the goodness of God that draws men to `repentance`.
Most of us have not come closs to experienceing what the people Jesus walked with did, not in todays society for sure!

An emotionally, physically and sleep derprived person especially if theres been alot of unusual stress that maybe it can be blamed on is Ripe for this kind of deception; and NOW

... leading to the Popular diagnosis of the Time, Everyone is bi-polar! My family Dr admitted he see's these trends and steers people in Other ways.

Without Any knowledge of my medical background, this Nurse Finally said, Your Symptoms are NOT coming from your Pituitary gland, tumors or adrenals, BUT you are Bi-Polar!

Is That what So many people are going to be facing now!??? We better seek Gods word, KNOW it, Read Proverbs, James and 1John once every month. It Makes Me accountable to GOD First, (and i'd not realized maybe other times i did what a doctor told me because of desperation).

Remember this... You may have been through so much within a period of even years, you really doubt your own mind, and we are 3 parts,  body, soul and spirit. When one is overloaded it does affect the others.

And even when I've not felt that i had the right mind to do this or that; make any decissions at all....... MY MORAL VALUES NEVER LEAVE, NOR CHECK OUT; EVEN IF THE MIND DOES. ITS CALLED MY CONSCIOUS. It Will KEEP you when you just are not in the positon to Make even the smallest decission, such as to put socks on or not to? That can seem like the hardest thing you've ever had to decide in times like this.
We better know the word. Only God can deal with each of us as we need.

walk in my socks, before advice. My dominant spiritual gift is Mercy. Life and death are in the power of the tongue and what may seem like nothing to you, is devastating to the gift of mercy.Don't be a pawn of the enemy,
before speaking, well thats another topic and is based totally on the 7 spiritual gifts, not all of them see eye to eye, thats why God gave each of us one to balance out the others.
So much of what i write down is what i'm writing is from a life experience, held up to the word of God, but how i React or do not react depends so very much on my dominate spiritual gift.

Much Love`
cj

Monday Am Update`

6:30 am Monday 6/28/10

Just a note to myself this morning, and anyone who may want to can watch how things work around here!
 ---> Since i cannot retell the details one more time of every symptom, every date, etc since 2003, and writing it even on a laptop, its just not healthy at this time.
There is a story i would not believe if my hubby has not been with me at the most crucial times to verify things that happened, things said, not said, family, friends, deaths, accidental accidents, the Good things that Happen, the things that God has allowed me to experience that there is No possible way I could understand it if and when someone else had the same experience; much less give advice?! Through out cliche scriptures as if  a suffering soul has never heard it less than every time they have something come up.
I Need Someone not emotionally involved watching my 24 hour around the clock routine, has one of her spiritual gifts is `Mercy`, knows the Word!!! my age or a little older at least to tell this Journey as it unfolded and type it in for me.

If its not written now, much will be overlooked and or forgotten and it maybe just the very thing that Someone needs to survive long enough to come to Jesus```` I'm leaving this request at the cross; God is responsible for it now!

Regardless if my name is attached or Not... this is not About ME, its about what God Can Do When HE is FINALLY `ALL` you Have, not hubby or wife to count on, friend, family, neighbor, NO ONE.  I Only Thought i'd experienced that; Oh that is so far from the truth, i just did not know it. This is about God, and so much more, that will give Him the  Glory He deserves and Someone will Need This.

Ohhh...Something happened to part of this post when i saved it, well.......NOT to worry, when it needs to be here it will be!

NOTE---> Pray for Sarah, she's having a bone scan today, some knots have been found in her leg and obviously they are looking for cancer first. I found this out just last night at church, its been too long since last there.
I pray this way, Lord YOUR WILL BE DONE! Yes, i also pray every biblical way God gave us concerning sickness. 
I'd Much rather have God's Perfect Will For Her, than His Permissive will. I know that road, it's so easy to decieve ourselves, i sure am guilty of that.
`Perfect Will--- We can't loose either way don't you know!
`Permissive Will--- I think Alot now before praying, asking, who's will and way is most important as i rushed through what a normal day used to be, and sincerely praying, reading the word and love to talk with others. It's taken over 23 years, i lost something in my relationship with God when i got married, and Never could get that Close relationship back, i resented that!
But, i also remember what Paul said about staying single and getting married, so i thought, tried to convince myself, really didnt know, if that was how it was supposed to be.???? At this point i still cant say for sure, but i do know He will reveal it at some point, 40 yrs in the wilderness??? I understand why it takes a Lifetime to become Comformed to His Image?!
And here i thought living on the streets at 16 yrs old in a large city was hard, and the many things that i witnessed before and after that was my testimony of  Real hardship; to Many it will be. To Me, and Someone else out there in Gods timing; that was a minor skinned knee compared to these past few years.
I do Not regret Any part of this... and i say that kind of grinding my teeth; but i don't Want to settle for just a good relationship with God, my Hubby, others, or i led so and so many to Jesus before i got married, and say Real Repentance, and they still are living for Him today.
God does Not Settle because for whatever reason its not been figured out by ME yet. HIS `Perfect` Will is Just that!

`PERFECT`

` for Him, me, and `EVERYONE` concerning ME! Even though i've taken some low hits from those who are the closest to me,,,, if Not for that.........
His Perfect Will for `ME` also Affects YOU! Be Thankful its the `little` everyday details dealing with this (with me) that stress you out so you leave, can't take it so i get the worst of  your stress? 
 I'm NOT angry, until i understood just what was really going on in the Spiritual realm, i was Very Hurt to the Point God Needed to bring me to as of  Rock Bottom! God used everyone's little stress's, that the enemy mean't for Evil to Destroy me, To Accomplish the very thing He intended at the Perfect time on a hot night sitting on our backporch, actually i was standing by the chair.
One comment from the only person i Never thought would say anything but only in love, and didnt mean it to be bad, i know that.  I drive back to madisonville, and have been working Very hard renewing this mind, speaking truth the past 50 miles as to not give the enemy a foothold. I'm very used to this at this point.
Arriving home at dark, still confessing Truth over lies, little did i know one more jab with words  would come that night. It  would decide not only my future, to have one or not, & depending on the outcome of that, anyone whom i allowed myself to come in contact with me, would know too late the power of words.
 "Nothing can happen to you, me, your family everyone who means anything at all to you, unless... they know Christ and are living for Him, Unless.... God `Allows` spiritual wickedness in high places to do just as we know God allowed satan to do to get at Job and test him. Flesh and blood are Not the enemy; but the Real enemy will use those most close to us if he can give them truth with just a Little bit of lie. Job's own Wife told him to curse God and Die! Should any of use expect less testing????  I sure thought so!

The only one who has been with me mostly on a daily basis, is my hubby, he works at night, sleeps all day, gets up and gets on the couch and sleeps till time to go back to work.

I did not understand why those i was the closest to seemed to react the cruelest, everyone had an opinion and most of them lived out of state!  This is whats wrong with you do, don't, MIND Boggling! I've spent an Unbelievable amount of time researching online and it may Very well have kept me alive, thanks to God for giving that one extra minute to research, to Know Enough Not to be Misdiagnosed, Given the Wrong Medicine that Can kill, to Know who to trust & who not to.  More than likely because i believed over 24 years ago due to symptoms, what a doctor told me must be true, i've been on meds that have certian conseqences. And at that time, One instance in 1986 this doctor Really was trying to help.
 I do not handle stress of anykind! It affects my body in some form or fashion.
Will finish this later, there is daylight and i'm missing some of it...


With Love
May the Lord Bless You and Keep You Today`
Cj